rahh~
stupid
stupid
stupid
stupid

my bro spoilt the penguinn siying gave me~
wa lau..
stupid lorhh!
its my fav cushion!
& he spoilt it..
luckily all e beads haven come out yet
& im going to sew it just becoz of him..

sometimes i wonder..
does he ever understand me?
verbally,
i shout at him,
scold him,
but yet...
doesnt he know that
everytime i scold & shout at him,
my heart breaks alot?

out of my mouth came "i hate uue"
but deep in my heart was "i love uue"
but does he ever appreaciate that?
i know that to him,
he will think that i hate him alot,
becoz every time he comes into my room,
i will shoo him away..

but its actually nt the reason,
is becoz i thought uue will understand me
& let me vent my angers on uue..
i know its wrong of me to do that..
but i thought that uue will know that i really appreaciate uue..

i really love uue alot..
but why can't uue understand me..
sometimes i'm stress till i vent my anger..
im really really sry..
but i dunno why
perhaps i thought uue are e only one who knows me best..
but looks like i was wrong..

i really love uue dde..
thus,
i hope that when i always scold uue,
or say that i hate uue,
i hope that u will nt take it to heart..
becoz i just dunno who to vent my anger on..

im really sry for venting my anger on ue..
i just hope that uue will nt take it to heart..
& think that i really hate uue..

i rmbed asking uue if uue think i love uue anort..
& i rmbed that uue said that i hate uue & do not love uue..
im really sry!
):
actually
when im scolding uue
im really sry & i love uu..
im just hope that uue will know that i love uue very much
& nt hate uue..

because i love uue from the bottom & deep in my heart,
i hope that uue will forgive me for scolding uue becoz i just wan to
find someone that i can rely & vent my anger on.
pls believe me that i love uue & i do not hate uue..

to my belove bro,
i thank uue for being my bro & i love uue sincerely frm da bottom of my heart
& im sry for venting my anger on ue..
i hope that uue don take it to heart & uue will understand it becoz
i know that uue are mature enough to do so..
lastly
love ya my brother (: