This is my 400th post.
But I'm sad.

I feel drained out, by academics, by peer pressure, by family.

I don't know where to start from to rant and vent out all my anger, my sadness.
I don't know where to start from to start studying for As.
I don't know where to start from to console my family,

I feel sad.
I feel pressurised.
I feel stress.

But what can I do?

I've to put on a real two-sided face both in school and at home.
Can someone really tell me what to do?

I hate school now, I've phobia of my class, phobia of everything.
One by one, everyone is leaving. And now, I'm left with myself all alone, to come face to face with my class.
It's not that I hate my class, it's the actions and behaviours and their smartness in them that makes me stupid, makes me think that I'm useless, hopless and makes me want to run away from them, from everything.
Even what my CLL teacher says also makes me think that way. And now, I've got no more motivation from my friends. No one will understand what I'm thinking of now.

And worse at home, sigh. I don't even want to talk about it.
I've got the worse case ever.

FML.
I really really feel like killing myself now.

FML

FML.

Seriously I feel that my life sucks.
I feel so hopeless.
I mean, i don't know what to say.
Emotions are engulfing over me to the extent that I don't know if I should be glad or if I should be sad.

People around me are giving me peer pressure.
I don't know what my reaction should be like know.

I feel hopeless.
I feel that I've let myself down.
I feel useless.
I feel that I've let everyone down.

I feel like escaping from reality, can I?

It's not only about her, it's about me.
I feel totally sad about everything.

I want to cry everything out.
I don't want to breakdown again in front of anyone.

Please, leave me alone.
For I will really breakdown in front of you, I swear.

OMG. IM DAMN ANGRY AND PISSED OFF NOW THAT I CANNOT THINK PROPERLY IN CHINESE. ALL MY VULGARITIES ARE APPEARING.


TODAY IS A VERY SUAY DAY!!!!


1. I CANNOT TAKE OUT MY BRACES!!! CAN ONLY DO SO NEXT MONTH!!! URGHHHHHHHHHH!

2. I HAVE TO DO THE THINGS THAT I HATE. OMG PLEASE COME AND FIND ME IF YOU KNOW WHAT IT IS IF NOW I'LL BE SO BORED AND LONELY :(


The only thing that cheered me up is that

Singapore is really very small.

I met bojun, yifan & zhangwei today.

Still cant believe that I actually met them in JP when they just touched down to Singapore in the afternoon.

Yup, so it's very unbelievable.


OTHER THAN THAT. PISSED OFF TTM! GRRRRRR! >:(

No love today! :P

I slack my ass off today!

That's a very very bad thing!

Omg, procrastination is engulfing my whole body! It's like a disease! Oh no!

&& there's dental tmr! Dreaded~

Any kind souls out there, sms me tmr okay! For I'll be real bored~~~

Take Care!

With love,
grace :)

I've been a pig the whole day todayyyyyyyy! Grrrr! >:(

Slept till like 12noon?

And then continued sleeping again frm 2plus to 6plus.
Omg, it's only the 3rd day of 2010 and I'm like that. Goodness!

I feel like staying up the whole night, but I'm worried I'll fall asleep when I go for my lessons tmr. Zzz. Tell me how?

And anw, why is everyone thinking of quitting OGL?
Everyone, think carefully & properly, or you will regret.!

But rest assured, I've never regretted in quitting OGL, though I feel sad at times.

With love,
grace :)

Post 395! Means in another 5 days, I'll have 400 posts! Yay! :)

Alright, time to do homework.

Sigh, all of a sudden, the questions seem so easy to do, but no information can help to solve those questions~

Take Care!

With love,
grace:)

A new year, A new start, A new beginning.

Take Care everyone,

With love,
Grace :)