Worried.

The title says it all.

I've many things to do, but I've got so little time.
How? D:

I'm afraid, afraid I can't live up to his expectation, afraid I'll break down, afraid that I can't perform up to my expectation.
I'm really afraid, afraid that I'll disappoint you again & again.
I don't want this to carry on, but what can I do?

One year of my JC life has passed.
I still remember the times where I first got to know I got into my first choice, elated? Well maybe not.

Yet, I still hung on to hope, hoping that I'll do well.
But as the term goes on, I realised that I'm only deceiving myself.
I don't know where the path lies in me.
But I want to do well.
Yet I know I'm only procrastinating.

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Sorry for the emo-ish post.
On a happier moments,
met my mom today after my dental appt since I can't get to lunch with him.
Well, it's alright, I'm not even angry nor petty :)
There's still chance yea? :)

And anyway, I was late for my appt! 20min -.-
All because of the stupid 99 and 185 that pushed back all my plans.
Stupid SBS buses. F you.
Once, twice, I can accept, but it's always happening. It makes once pissed off.

And so my dentist thought I wasn't coming but thank god, he scrap that thought off.
Yeah, treatment today was rather painful. Hopefully I can take off my braces next year way before prom, that is, if I promote successfully :/

God, bless me please. Really.

Take Care everyone!

With love,
Grace :)