My girls, My sisters :D
Okay, as I'm blogging this now,
I'm in the process of having a conversation with Angie&Jas and thus will decide to forsake my hw, while Angie is in the process of having a very heated argument with YiDa.
Yes him.
And they are going to malacca too, as a class. Yes, class.
Enough of my rant about him.
What I want to say is, yes I miss my girls, my sisters.
Yanshin, Angelia, Jasmine, ChingYee.
All of a sudden, I'm feeling very very down now.
I don't know why the sudden change in me.
But after talking to them, after reading shin's blog.
I realised, after these few months, I've just been deceiving myself.
I really missed them alot. tears are flowing as I typed this out.
I'm really really sad.
Deep down my heart, I miss the days eating with them, nagging with them, chatting with them, studying with them.
Helping around each other when we don't know our studies, scolding each other when we lose our things, encouragging each other, celebrating each other birthday, shopping together.
Yes, all these things.
I somehow, somewhat start to lose it alr.
I'm totally very very sad now. :(
Yes I know, look forward to the future, friends are still there when you need them.
Yes I know, it's time to move on with the friendship, make more new friends.
yes, I don't deny, my sisters are still here with me when I needed them badly.
Yet, when we say we meet up, seriously, everyone got our own clique, we really do not have as much time as we used to have for each other.
I've got a feeling we have really start to drift apart. Is this really happening?
Though Ching and I are in the same sch, but we don't get to see each other often. Often as in everyday. We only see each other once a wk at most.
That's bad the situation is now.
I really really hope we don't drift apart, not now, not forever.
In my 17 yrs of life, yes, they are the ones really close to me!
Make new friends? More friends?
Yet now, as I moved on to JC life, yes I've made friends.
but who are they? just Singporean friends. Yanling, Peiqi, Peihua, Valissa.
Though its like my 2nd clique, but I don't see the bond with my class.
other class can bond. Why not us?
I feel like i've entered an international school, a foreign class with all the China people. yet theey aren't taking the initiative to bond with us, nor to talk to us.
I felt so outcasted, we felt it too.
In front of them, I've always felt that I've put on a 'mask' which I hate it. Seriously.
But I don't care alr.
Seriously, what I hope now is, yes I've finally had the chance to talk to my sisters today.
Felt both sad and happy.
How I wish I can still turn the clock around. But it's late now.
I really really hope that I can still bond together with them, that our friendship will still stay even after many years.
I really really hope that.
I miss you girls alot.
I really really miss you deep down inside my heart. D:
[Edited/]
Alright, I saw my ahgong's chan teng tag in FB.
Don't cling on tightly to what has passed.
I will try to let go.
Bit.By.Bit.
I.will.Try.
WHy?
Because I've got no choice.
PS I've typed this in 5 min only, this shows how moody I am. D:
I'm in the process of having a conversation with Angie&Jas and thus will decide to forsake my hw, while Angie is in the process of having a very heated argument with YiDa.
Yes him.
And they are going to malacca too, as a class. Yes, class.
Enough of my rant about him.
What I want to say is, yes I miss my girls, my sisters.
Yanshin, Angelia, Jasmine, ChingYee.
All of a sudden, I'm feeling very very down now.
I don't know why the sudden change in me.
But after talking to them, after reading shin's blog.
I realised, after these few months, I've just been deceiving myself.
I really missed them alot. tears are flowing as I typed this out.
I'm really really sad.
Deep down my heart, I miss the days eating with them, nagging with them, chatting with them, studying with them.
Helping around each other when we don't know our studies, scolding each other when we lose our things, encouragging each other, celebrating each other birthday, shopping together.
Yes, all these things.
I somehow, somewhat start to lose it alr.
I'm totally very very sad now. :(
Yes I know, look forward to the future, friends are still there when you need them.
Yes I know, it's time to move on with the friendship, make more new friends.
yes, I don't deny, my sisters are still here with me when I needed them badly.
Yet, when we say we meet up, seriously, everyone got our own clique, we really do not have as much time as we used to have for each other.
I've got a feeling we have really start to drift apart. Is this really happening?
Though Ching and I are in the same sch, but we don't get to see each other often. Often as in everyday. We only see each other once a wk at most.
That's bad the situation is now.
I really really hope we don't drift apart, not now, not forever.
In my 17 yrs of life, yes, they are the ones really close to me!
Make new friends? More friends?
Yet now, as I moved on to JC life, yes I've made friends.
but who are they? just Singporean friends. Yanling, Peiqi, Peihua, Valissa.
Though its like my 2nd clique, but I don't see the bond with my class.
other class can bond. Why not us?
I feel like i've entered an international school, a foreign class with all the China people. yet theey aren't taking the initiative to bond with us, nor to talk to us.
I felt so outcasted, we felt it too.
In front of them, I've always felt that I've put on a 'mask' which I hate it. Seriously.
But I don't care alr.
Seriously, what I hope now is, yes I've finally had the chance to talk to my sisters today.
Felt both sad and happy.
How I wish I can still turn the clock around. But it's late now.
I really really hope that I can still bond together with them, that our friendship will still stay even after many years.
I really really hope that.
I miss you girls alot.
I really really miss you deep down inside my heart. D:
[Edited/]
Alright, I saw my ahgong's chan teng tag in FB.
Don't cling on tightly to what has passed.
I will try to let go.
Bit.By.Bit.
I.will.Try.
WHy?
Because I've got no choice.
PS I've typed this in 5 min only, this shows how moody I am. D:
posted by Grace.C | 8:39 PM
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